No longer a Spirit Junkie

Ugh, I wasn’t going to do this. But I got a sign from the Universe today that basically told me to not be a bitch and do it. 

I have had many teachers on my spiritual path. Some have stayed with me, some I have kept, some I have let go of entirely.

However this situation is different. In 2016 or thereabouts, I pre-ordered The Universe has  you back to get access to the free manifesting workshop. Now, I hate to admit this, but I was going to cancel the preorder after the workshop because, even then, I couldn’t afford to buy a book.

This changed instantly when the workshop started. I felt so much peace and joy and serenity. I felt empowered and emboldened to live and step into my purpose. I became so at peace and genuinely full of faith in the universe.

That point changed everything for me. I soaked up everything Gabby offered. Everything. Books, courses, YouTube videos, you name it. I would spend my days off watcher her videos and crying my eyes out because it was exactly what I needed to hear. 

So, when the opportunity presented itself to go to Spirit Junkie Masterclass, I jumped at it. It was a wonderful experience. I met so many amazing friends and people. But that also started something in me that I didn’t tell many people about.

While at Spirit Junkie, I couldn’t shake this feeling of being left out of everything. I felt alone because I didn’t sign up to be an essential oils salesman or buy all this whatever the fuck. I remember sending $80 that I didn’t have on a Mala bead necklace to fit in. 

I felt that the material was great, but there was a tad of an elitist vibe to it. Now, this isn’t saying I’m not grateful for having been invited, I am. But I felt something I couldn’t quite explain. 

So I came home and did my thing. Started buying essential oils that I didn’t give two shits about, started become super active in the facebook groups, but I still just didn’t fit in. I felt like since I wasn’t a “coach” or “wellness coach”/“advocate” that I wasn’t really a priority for people to interact with because they couldn’t make money off of me. 

Now, keep in mind that during this time I was still following Doreen Virtue heavily. So I was also very heavily involved there as well.

Doreen was occupying the top pedestal with Gabby occupying the one right below it. I let that pedestal distract me from what was really going on.

I realized quickly that there were some questionable people in the Spirit Junkie Community. People who were projecting this larger than life lifestyle while getting caught with drugs, people basically worshipping the ground Gabby walked on like she was God, and people who thought that calling themselves “Spirit Junkies” gave them an advantage over any other kind spiritual path/person.

This really took a turn when friends of mine got fucked over by SJ’s They called out the spirit junkie community as a whole, and even Gabby, but nothing was done to rectify and situations. I admit, I turned a blind eye to some of it and wrote it off as being made to be bigger than it was because I didn’t want to see fault in another teacher. I didn’t want to be let down. 

But it kept nagging at me, and I kept getting off-putting vibes from the people but I still soaked up the information like a sponge.

I posted Gabby’s work 1) because it actually helped (and some still does help) me and 2) I wanted gain followers. That’s why you use hashtags, so people can find your stuff. That’s literally the whole point.

But even that begin to change. It was brought to my attention first by one friend, then by another, how toxic the SJ community is, and I quickly began to see that. In a facebook group, a black woman posted about her disappointment in the response from Gabby about the black lives matter movement and begged her to do more and speak up more. This white lady posted that “she is really working through the judgment detox journal” and suggests that this woman do that. 

Judgement Detox will not stop systemic racism and the killing of unarmed black people.

That pissed me off. 

Then, a SJ who is just a crazy fucking psychotic bitch, threatened one of my friends and nothing was done about it by Gabby. It was a “forgive and delete” conversation.

I admit my part of the hypocrisy by not calling out teachers out of ignorance and fear of being retaliated against. I’m sorry for that. 

That’s bullshit. 

The Spirit Junkie Community from 2018 on, I have left in the dust.

I had one bitch tell me “I have an army of positive light warriors on my side so don’t come for me”. Well, apparently your light and mine are different as fuck, so you can keep yours.

 If we are friends from there, and still talk, then I love you and hope we can still be friends after this. I just can’t gloss over behavior like this from spiritual groups and teachers anymore. I can’t.

So, I am in the process of leaving the groups, unfollowing people, I’ve already blocked a million of them, and setting my new course. No matter what, I know the Universe Has My Back.